aint it funny?

not funny ha ha. not even creepy funny.

its more like life throwing you a curve ball that you really werent expecting funny.

i try to go through life without any expectations. No expectations means you dont get hurt when something doesnt happen the way you want it to, if your lucky, and something good happens, you end up pleasantly surprised.
So, i had no expectations. And i was pleasantly surprised. But the thing is, this even so rarely happens that i am unsure of handle it. Just because it was unxpected doesnt mean that its bad...right?
Like a good friend told me, i deserve to be happy and i should take a chance.
Now, im all for that. it can be a part of my goal to change my life for the better now that i am 21.

But here's the funny curve ball:
I'm stepping out of my comfort zone and taking a chance. But just when i've decided to do this, the one that i wanted to take a chance on me, the one that i used to wait for and have now decided to move on from and take a chance on someone else......he may possibly want to take that chance now.....