karma
Do you believe in karma?
Do you believe a person gets what they deserve?
A few months ago i was a confused person. I mean, im always confused about one thing or another on different levels, but im talking about something specific this time. Those who know me can guess right away what i was confused about: a relationship. (isn't that something we're all confused about at some point?)
i knew the basics. i liked him, he liked me, he was a decent person. But still,i was unsure about certain things. While all this was going on, there was a whole other story going on, which i cant describe coz its not my place. but it was kinda linked to my situation. This led to the guy im talking about getting caught in the middle without even knowing it. i wanted to ignore the uncertainty and hope that it would all work out. i couldnt. so we ended up just friends.
Somewhere between then and now, without realising it was happening, i have become less confused about how i feel about him.
i was going to ignore the clarity. After all, he's leaving soon. It didnt work.
And at the end of this twisted, not clearly explained story, it turns out that he's put me in the middle of a situation, just like i did to him.
It wasnt intentional. Not then, when i did it. Or now, when he has done it.
But given the parallels between then and now, i think i can safely say karma has smacked me in the face.
*** i think i have more to say on this topic of karma. But right now, i dont much feel like sitting here thinking about my stupdity. Maybe i'll do a sequel to this post....2moro. Although i'll still feel stupid/loser-ish/pitiful/alone, hopefully my thoughts (and therefore my post) will make sense
Do you believe a person gets what they deserve?
A few months ago i was a confused person. I mean, im always confused about one thing or another on different levels, but im talking about something specific this time. Those who know me can guess right away what i was confused about: a relationship. (isn't that something we're all confused about at some point?)
i knew the basics. i liked him, he liked me, he was a decent person. But still,i was unsure about certain things. While all this was going on, there was a whole other story going on, which i cant describe coz its not my place. but it was kinda linked to my situation. This led to the guy im talking about getting caught in the middle without even knowing it. i wanted to ignore the uncertainty and hope that it would all work out. i couldnt. so we ended up just friends.
Somewhere between then and now, without realising it was happening, i have become less confused about how i feel about him.
i was going to ignore the clarity. After all, he's leaving soon. It didnt work.
And at the end of this twisted, not clearly explained story, it turns out that he's put me in the middle of a situation, just like i did to him.
It wasnt intentional. Not then, when i did it. Or now, when he has done it.
But given the parallels between then and now, i think i can safely say karma has smacked me in the face.
*** i think i have more to say on this topic of karma. But right now, i dont much feel like sitting here thinking about my stupdity. Maybe i'll do a sequel to this post....2moro. Although i'll still feel stupid/loser-ish/pitiful/alone, hopefully my thoughts (and therefore my post) will make sense
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