Wasted

I don't wanna' spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go byWasted

Oh I don't wanna' keep on wishing, missing
The still of the morning, the color of the night
I ain't spending no more time
Wasted

That's the chorus of 'Wasted' by Carrie Underwood. Yes, a country song. But given certain events in my life recently, this song really seems to fit where I am right now.

Yesterday was not an easy day. In fact, parts of it were down right hard. Funerals are never fun, but to go to a funeral of an individual who was my age, who had her whole happy life ahead of her, who left behind so many who loved her, who was taken so tragically....well, that was just cruel.

Then, in a strange way, the day got better. I spent the evening amongst friends and family. It was nothing fancy, but its simplicity was beautiful. Just a bunch of friends, sitting around, drinking and talking. Sometimes i just crave for nites like that. To have an opportunity to do this yesterday, after the events of the morning, was something i didnt even realised i needed until i had it.

Driving home afterwards, I, as i often do when im driving alone, reflected on recent events. And then it struck me:

I am content with the way my life is right now.

Sure, there are things i could have done differently. And decisions i made in the past have certainly effected many aspects of me: my work, my social circle, my personality. But i do not have any regrets. Everything i have ever done, everyone i have ever spoken to as made me who i am today.

I have only truly ever had one goal for my life and that is to be happy.
My life so far has not been Wasted.